A Mother's Day Tragedy

WARNING: This could be very depressing and rate high on the crying factor....you've been warned. So, I had to work today, which wasn't the tragedy by the way. We're talking about a person who's birthday is on Christmas, so working on a "holiday" isn't that major. Plus, Landen's not big enough to really care about Mother's Day anyway, but I digress from my story. I've found that writing out my thoughts helps me to cope with difficult situations, and today was VERY difficult. Without giving away too much information, because I want to keep my license, I had a very young patient pass away today. In fact, I had only seen this certain patient for a total of about 25 minutes before they stopped breathing, and their heart stopped beating. As a nurse, all I could do during the whole code was think, what could I have seen, what more could I have done!? The worst part of it was when the doctor went out and informed the family that the patient didn't make it. All I could think of was in the scriptures when they described a "wailing". Even the babies of the family members were screaming. It was the most horrible, traumatic experience I've been through! And, I just kept thinking of my own precious baby at home, and what I would be doing if that were my child that had just unexpectedly passed away, on Mother's Day of all days. This patient had literally gone from living a normal life 24 hours earlier, to passing away. Having the beliefs that I do, it's very comforting to imagine this patient being welcomed "home" by all previous family members, and what this patient, who had so much to look forward to, and to do in their life, was now going to be doing to continue on our Heavenly Father's work. I am continually amazed at how much Heavenly Father utilizes me to help some of his children, and it was comforting to me at least, that I was in the room, and attempting to do everything I could when my patient passed away. So, tonight I came home, shed some more tears for this poor mother who lost her "baby" today (even though I'd pretty much been crying off and on all day anyway), and snuggled my own just a little tighter. I am SO grateful to be a mother! The biggest thing that I can say from this whole experience is that mothers really do know when something is not right with their child. This mother did not leave her child's side the whole time, even though they were at the age to be considered an adult and could make their own decisions. She KNEW something was wrong, so trust yourself as a mother. Heavenly Father will help you protect your babies. Again, sorry for the depressing post, but I needed to get this off my chest. Brian really was sweet in trying to make the rest of my day a good one, but my heart is still aching for this poor mother and family on this Mother's Day.